reading list

Napolean Bonaparte

Henry Kissinger

Slavoj Zizek

Oliver Sacks

Flesh...flesh...flesh...

Flesh...flesh...flesh...

Reading Virno's book 'when the word becomes flesh' while painting numerous colorful trees, listening to Miles Davis, and speaking no word. 

When will this word become a flesh? 

When will I become a flesh?

When will I find you, flesh? 

Where are you flesh?

What are you flesh?

Where did you come from flesh? and where are you going, flesh?

Flesh...flesh...flesh...

A euphemism for you, yes, you.

No one can help you when you're lost.

Oh Canada!

I am now moved to Vancouver, a nice and beautiful city. The de ja vu moments are grand and everyday I realize how much I had missed Canada in the past three years, how much I am missing San Francisco, how much I long to be in Berkeley, how much I want to be in Toronto, and how dearly I wish I was in Europe all at the same time. Perhaps, with dying, I can finally be free of space and time grounding me to this moment to sit down here and write. I was under a strong impression that Vancouver is a sterile city, much like Los Angeles of the north. To my fascination and amazement, I am slowly realizing that there's an underground to the city, and that people look very normal and beautiful on the outside but the inside stories they carry is fascinating. My favorite place is the Kits neighborhood not because of its vicinity to David Suzuki, but because the Kits pool, the jewel of Vancouver, is closeby. Summer, sun, cherry blossoms, swimming pools, sick intense sceneries, and alluring characters surround me. Make me grounded now, if you can, Vancouver. Thank you.

Recommending to watch

• Kiarostami's 'Like Someone In Love'
• Get to know Hunter Thompson through: Gonzo: The life and work of Dr. Hunter S. Thompson, Rum Diaries, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
• Boyhood
• The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
• Steve Jobs: One last thing
• House in Brittany

February

The month of February is special for so many different reasons.
Happy February dearest elephile.

He

He acts like spring 
Walks like May
Dances like Summer
Talks like Rain
Sings like Winter
Hurts like breath 

Leaving behind

More is going to be written about my love for Berkeley, San Francisco, San Diego, and Los Angeles. More will be told about my adventures in the west: California, Nevada, Oregon, Arizona, Utah, Washington, Wyoming, Dakota, Idaho, Colorado, and Montana. This shall be intertwined with the stories of the east coast: Toronto, New York, and Philadelphia.
But for now, I shall leave you behind US of A. I shall leave you completely behind and in this act I shall be leaving me behind.
Behind leaving is a story...
Leaving behind is a story...

Fast Takes on ten Movies for our ADHD generation

Selma was a great movie. Perhaps a thing or two to learn about peaceful protest by the Iranians inside and outside of Iran. Points to ponder. Things to think.

Big eyes by Tim Burton was also great, set in the dearest city to my heart, San Francisco, and based on a true story. Cheers to the painters.

Still Alice, Julianne Moore made it beautiful, showing how some diseases can be spiritually beautiful, with rainbows and unicorns. I was struggling with the idea for days after the movie ended. I still am.

Imitation game, just wonderful. The aura is there to be remembered through the ages over and over. Perhaps we are at the brink of yet another discovery that the government is trying to keep silent. I won't tell what it is.

Theory of everything. Of course.

Into the woods, the post modern take on all our childhood stories at the same time in one sitting, how different would that be? Yes great visuals and actress, but substance? Perhaps not much.

The Grand Budapest hotel, haha, yes please.

American Sniper, I better not talk, there's already too many talks.

50 shades of gray, filthy shades of gray much...but not so bad of an acting.

Boyhood, I am going to watch this today, see you later :)

Birdman 2014

Alejandro González Iñárritu, thank you.
This movie made a mark on me, it definitely did.

Set in New York, the city I love dearly.

Holy Mountain - 1973 - Alexandro Jodorowsky

To want, To know, To dare, To be silent

...

These nine people are thieves just like you but on another level, powerful industrialists and politicians:

1. Venus [to care about the human body]: everyone wanting to be loved not for who they are but for the mask they wear.

2. Mars [to manufacture and sell weapons]: deadly bacteria, bombs, carcinogens, etc.

3. Jupiter [to make machines]:  electronic orgasm
4. Saturn [to manufacture war toys]: customers are children and clients are the government
5. Uranus ...
6. Pluto [to make buildings]:
7.
8.
9.
...

There are many Holy mountains but the legend is always the same.
There are nine men who live on top of the mountain who have gained immortality. I know where the immortals live and how to obtain their secrets. The Holy mountain of Lotus Island.
But to find the secret of wise men, we too need to become wise.
With the correct formula, any human being can be enlightened.
The immortals are a group, in order to become them, we need to cease being individual human beings and operate in a group.
When the self concept reigns [this is mine], then the greater self consisting of all of us ceases to exist. Burn the self image and you shall enter one step higher on the step of love and wisdom.
...

Plants are the humble guardian of the secret.
The flower knows, you don't need to ask it. Delicate scent of flowers is the blood in our veins.
Together we form the flower in search of the secret water, to make human flesh.
How many are you? We are one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine. We are nine.

The ceremony of death: return what was loaned to you. Give up your family, your pains, you pleasures, your desires, your hates. You will know nothingness, don't be scared, you are not alone. Give up to the grave, you started from there. You will be reborn. Surrender. Possession is the ultimate pain.

...

It's a great movie, director and actors on LSD. Must watch.

Happy 2015

I realize I've been completely ignoring you Elephile Jaane Jaan.
Looks like every time I enter here I owe an apology for having ignored you long enough. Oh well. Life takes different directions and not everything is explainable nor does it need to be explained. Does it? 
I don't need to brag about my new life nor describe the series of eventful happenings to have driven me around to this corner of the world but I'm happy. I am truly happy.
I am happy I met my family over the year-end holidays.
I am happy for my brother.
I am very happy for my brother.
I am happy for my cousins.
I am happy for my boyfriend.
I am happy that the world is drifting by like small grains of sand in the wind.
I am happy I am unable to catch a single grain of it in my hand.
I am happy I am not holding on.
I am happy I am free.
I am happy I am at peace.
I am happy I don't despise.
I am happy I don't hate.
I am happy I am unhappy.
I am happy I am happy.
I want to wish you a happy new year as well.
I can see the red and gold sheep posters all over Los Angeles as we speak, it's the Sheep year in Chinese new year they say.
Happy 2015.

Give more than you take

Happy Valentine's Day
May you not be alone on this day of love and may you always have a love to celebrate love with.
Happy Valentine's Day