My stomach was really big. She kept swirling around. I will never forget the time she decided to leave water for land. I wanted her to chose land with no regrets. Her choice with no regret was my creation, because water is land and land is water and they are both fire and air at the same time. Well, maybe not at the same time, but eventually. Her name was an elephant when she was born. I like her to be around. She is full of life and that is contagious. She starts a chain reaction of life for me and those around her. She doesn't know how she does that. I don't know either, but she does. Maybe I could change her name later. Call her life, or love. Her dad likes to take her to a big home. I like staying here though. It's cosy, but I don't mind if her dad likes it. Her dad is my dad. I am not a woman yet, and he knows it. Is that why he loves me? Is that why he hates me? Is it why he can't wrap his head around me? Is it why he choses silence and distance? What is he sad about? Maybe he's not sad. Maybe he's sad with me, or sad about choosing land for water or air or fire. No he's not sad. He just doesn't talk. Maybe he forgot his language. Maybe he is drowned in words, like me. Or maybe he is drowned in air, fire, or water, but not land, because otherwise he would talk more. Does he dream of me? I can't ask these questions from him. I am the questions, living...with an elephant who has stepped into life. He knows or doesn't know who he is and I know or don't know who I am. All we both really know, however, is that this little life form makes something beautiful for us, somewhere. That's why we created her, to be our cane when we are old. How selfish, how arrogant, how sick. We don't need canes, do we need canes? Do we need someone to put us in graves? The bodies will decay anyways, in soil, or in water, or in air, or in fire. Will she ever understand why she came to life for? Will we ever understand why we came? With no regrets? from water to land? From love? From a stomach? My stomach? Stomach. Am I dreaming out loud? Am I keeping anything real? Or is what I make real?
Thank you Mommy. Thank you Daddy. I love you both. I really do. Happy Birthday Our Little Elephant.
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My little Elephant,
We are so happy to have this little Elephant with us on the land.
We always were proud when this elephant was very small, From the Beginning, when she was a baby & now.
We have grown up with you, I always have thought I teach you, but I am wrong, you are my teacher forever.
Stay a little girl and Dad's love , You know that he loves you more than every body in his life,
His silence shows her love , He is just full of energy because of you ,
His silence shows he is flying with you , he flies , he lives , he is happy as long as you exist , No matter where. In the water or on the land,
He is not sad at all , he just shows his love and happiness with his silence,always & forever,
He is just proud of you , He lives because you live,
He is full of life ,love, Because he has you,
I hope to have u for ever & HAPPY BIRTH DAY
Mom
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